A few posts came across my FB page the last few days & I really had a few of those -wow moments. Amazing how they both relate so much to each other and the plateau / lazy patch I've had on my journey.
I know so many times over the last few months I've made excuses as to why I haven't reached my goal yet and why I'm not where I want to be.
Blaming circumstances - blaming my everything I can think of.
Telling myself that I am happy with where I am at when honestly I know I'm not!
Ultimately though I know that I have to overcome the fear of what It might actually feel like to have the body deep down I know I want and the feeling of self satisfaction I know that will bring.
While it's great to aknowledge what I have achieved so far I know I have to work harder on the issues I still have with food...train smarter and ignore the other BS I keep telling myself as to why I can't achieve what I set out to 2 years ago.
My first ever blog post... thank you for stopping by to read. The reason It’s
called Outside my comfort zone is because of a card I gave Tone not long after
we met ‘
’ 'The best discoveries are made outside your comfort zone.'
I can not think of a better way to sum this all up. Before the next chapter I thought I would take a few minutes to reflect on the last 2
years.
I say 2 years because for me - nearly 2 years ago I had a very big turning
point in my life. I gave birth to my beautiful daughter Angela. A big part of
my daily inspiration for keeping going despite times of self-doubt.
Without sugar coating it - I realised that unless I did something about my
weight ( the first time I was game to step on the scales was 113kgs) I was
going to be dead of an obesity related disease before I was old enough to see
her grow up.
I realised if I was going to teach her to exercise, eat the right foods and
have a healthy lifestyle that I had to put it into practice too. That being
said - it hasn't been an easy journey. Bad habits are hard to break and some
things are still a struggle. For me though - as a person who has tried unsuccessfully
to lose weight and keep it off before I guess I found my ULTIMATE motivation.
Not a dress to fit into for a friend’s wedding (or my own) etc... But an
inspiration that I am responsible for and I was going to have to look after and
guide through life. She is the reason this time I have kept
going despite a few hurdles. My inspiration for my journey shares my
life every day and seeing her smile when I come home from a run and seeing her
& Tone smile at the finish line of my first 10km run – why wouldn’t I want
to keep going.
The secondary reason was for myself & my relationship. Having been over weight
much of my adult life was I ever really happy in my own skin? Let me think
about that for a second…
NO !!
I'm feeling happier these days I know I'm a better wife... daughter... sister...
friend etc. I have more energy & some of my love for life back and am doing
things I never dreamed possible. If I can teach Angela one thing out of all
this ( and I hope she reads this when she is old enough) is that to grab life
and run with it - no matter how far behind the goal posts you feel.
Anything really is possible.
Before I go any further I do want to acknowledge the amazing support I have
had from my beautiful husband. He has spent time with Angela while I've trained...
ran etc. Without fail he always asks how my session was. I always say Angela
was the 2nd best thing I've done with my life so far - because the first one
was marry her Daddy. Without him the journey so far wouldn't be what it was and is.
Have I conquered all my demons? Not
yet – still like everyone a work in progress and I intend on writing about the
ups and downs during the next chapter.
One thing I do have now in my life is Exercise. I can honestly say I love it
now. I have an amazing person to thank
for that you know who you are…Thank you for your guidance and support throughout
the first 18 months of my journey. I
really feel like you helped put running in my life – and helped me believe I
can do things I couldn’t before.
The last 2 years have had some ups and downs... Like those horrible scales
which I don’t go near much anymore. I am proud to say I have pretty much stayed
at the same size for the last 5 months. Some call it a Plateau – I’ve called it
a test combined with a bit of laziness. Yes I can still fit into my size 14 jeans (
When I started I was a size 22) If I ask myself honestly if I’m happy to stay where I am
– the answer is definitely NO.
My eldest sister Ronita competed in her first ever 10km fun run last
weekend. I have never felt more
proud. She has transformed herself over
the last year and has also shed some serious kilos. She has inspired me to get over this ‘Plateau
/ Lazy patch'
What better way than do something new?
That being said I’m about to start a 10 week program and train for my
first Triathlon. Haven’t yet decided on
the distance but will give me an excellent fitness goal. Scary thing is I nearly didn’t do it because
I didn’t want to be in a swim suit. One
thing I’m sure of is that I want to help my daughter grow up with a positive
body image – so time for me to build a bridge and get over my own body issues
and get on with fixing them.
So the weekend of the 14th October is when I’ll swim ride &
run. Have a few other things before then too – including the TLC Fun Run on the
19th August and the Bridge to Brisbane.
The last few years haven't been a piece of cake but I have had some amazing
support and encouragement along the way.
Thank you to all of you who have commented on photos & posts and sent me messages throughout the journey so far! You are the reason I have decided to start blogging about my next chapter… Here’s to the next bit…Nekia Jx x
Here are a few things lately that have continued to encourage me.
